Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Random Rachel Random-ness

I think the word "random" is my new favorite for this quarter. I have started over-using it in my conversations, and as I went to type in the title of this post, I found that there was a long list of posts beginning with the word "random." Food for thought.

In other news, we are moving-- again.


Yes, I know the thought is mind-boggling.

Why are we moving again? Some days I pretend that I forgot why and whine a whole lot. Other days, I spend the entire 24 hours allotted me with my teeth clenched. (Maybe that's why I had a headache yesterday. Hmmm...) And today, I've thrown all worrying to the wind, and have peace in my soul. And a song in my heart, of course.

We are moving because God said we should. That's it.

Oh, I could ramble on about how we will be closer to family. How it's cheaper to live up there. How much I have missed being part of the drama that exists in family politics. (I was just kidding on that last one.) But none of those could actually get me to move out of this place I love.

But God can. And boy, He is.

What's surprising to me, is how okay I'm feeling about it all now. Don't get me wrong-- initially I went through all the phases of grief. Denial. Sadness. Anger. Temper tantrums. Extra-helpings of dessert. You know what I mean.

Then, I got a blessing or two. And I went to the temple. And though the circumstances that truly merit my freaking out about this whole "issue" were still there, I could smile and say, "It's okay. It will all work out."

Some days, I'm such a stubborn pain in the neck, I don't know why the Lord Above puts up with me. What's amazing is that He does-- AND that He still loves me; kicking and screaming and all.

God loves you, too.

That may also be a "random" thing for me to say, but it's the honest-to-goodness truth.


  1. How ironic that we are going through this at the same time. I am here feeling similar feelings (I am currently caught in all the family drama and don't particularly "love" where we are living...)But we go because it is in God's wisdom we rely. Not our own. He does love us. He really does. He knows what is best for us and our families. He knows what will mold us into the women we are to become.

    I love you Rachael. You are such an amazing and shining example to me. You always have been. Thank you.

    Good luck with your move. When are your exact dates?


  2. Good luck with your move. It sounds like a sacrifice, but I'm sure you'll be blessed.

  3. This happened to our family about 2 years ago...we up and moved in about a month. Sold the house and took off back to my husband's family. My loving advice...find an outlet for all the stress. I didn't think I was "stressed" but I had anxiety attacks and gained 25 pounds. Now working on getting off the weight. (This was with full knowledge of knowing we did the right thing and this is what the Lord wanted.) Good luck to you and your family.


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